well.

yup.

for so much things that had happened.

i admit and declared that.

im naive.

im childish.

im innocent.

im brainless.

im fool.

in short and simple.

im stupid.

more and more meet ups with u gers.

yup its damn great.

our endless chit chat.

our endless topics.

our endless **.

u noe.

i noe.

we all noe ah.

lol.

=D

kbox coming up~

still no reply.

still no letter.

den how am i gg to plan my fututre?

although all the while im not the kind of ppl will plan my future de.

but now.

im really like lost.

dunno wth im doing.

if i really got rejected by both uni.

i told myself give me 2 more mths.

see my current job will give me any better offer or not.

if not i got better offer liao.

met samuel recently.

he came to store last week or so ba.

i just simple shouted his name when we open my party storeroom door.

lol.

im just happy and shocked to see him lah.

miss him?

wahaha.

damn long ever since i last saw him.

think since end of last yr ba.

he got job offer asked me wana go join him or not.

can pay me up till 2.5k per mth.

hmm really lah.

i got more den enough reasons for me to leave my current job.

hais.

i just dont bear to leave.

5yrs leh.

is just like letting go of a 5yrs relationship.

ya.

im just a emo and loyal ppl.

hais.

wat will i be?

think i will decide and made my decision by august ba.

this world and this society is cruel.

i nice others nicely.

ppl treated me like shit.

'THANKS'

i just got a feeling tat she will backstab me in one way or another.

hais.

or im over sensative again.

dunno lah.

so is either she gone or i disappear.

u all have to believe me this time round.

trust me.

there is NO true friends at work.

colleagues will only always be colleagues.

nth more.

colleagues cant be best friends.

best friends better not become colleagues.

the world is small too.

one of ken's friend, fauzie, is my trumpet junior~!

the worst thing is.

i forgot who is he.

haa.

he rmb when there's me sure there's yun.

when there's yun sure there's me.

lol.

he rmb yuwei.

he still rmb yuwei can blast very loud.

he rmb ian.

he rmb gary.

he rmb gary as spiky hair or amani ba.

he even rmb chong meng.

basically he rmb the whole trumpet section.

but i just cannt rmb him.

im gg to look for the speech day photos.

he told he he's there.

haa.

and oso!

he oso rmb all my jies lor.

power lah.

when i name june yuxiu iris luvina.

he can rmb all the names.

even the alumni like soefian zhaohao he oso noe.

and oso one more thing.

he oso tot mdm wu and mr wee is husband and wife.

lol.

hmm wah~

our band talk..

thinking back.

yup.

miss those days.

miss band.

miss playing trumpet.

haa.

=D

life is a matter of live on or death.

if i choose to live on.

i will encounter lots of situation.

i can be sad.

i can be happy.

i can be hurt.

i can be loved.

if i choose death.

i dont even need to feel sad.

i dont even need to get hurt.

isn't it better?

i still cant accept it.

unless till the day comes.